24 Jan 2018

"I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try"

There are just some days you want to press the "fuck it all" button.  There are occassions that were it up to me I would push the bloody thing and wipe out humanity and start again.  I mean lets face it, if not me then it'll be one of the fat toddlers with bad hair starting global thermo nuclear warfare.

There was a time within living memory that I felt the world was getting better, we were all getting along and most people accepted the differences of others and we were trying to make things better with regards to pollution and the environment, human rights, workers rights and globalisation etc. Now however we are back in the stone ages what with the rise of the right wing in politics not just with the usual suspects but all over the bloody place.  The seemingly lack of concern for the environment or the the total absence of acceptance of others.  I mean I lived through the seventies I really don't want to go back.  What's next three day weeks and power cuts?

I have never really seen the point in racism or sexism or homophobia.  Lets face it  what does it matter to me what someone else is? I suppose I'm one of those filthy liberals that you here Fox 'news' guests complain about?  I'm certainly someone who thinks all others should live however they want in any way that they want with whomever they want, so long as they don't harm others.  The only people I truly detest are those whose raison d'etre is to hate and to spread hate.

But like I say they are seemingly on the increase, although I have yet to meet someone that voted for Brexit as everyone seems to realise it was a bad choice and is denying they helped it come to fruition.
It's a bit like after the war when people who for whatever reason colluded with the Germans but stated "I was never a Nazi".

Still, I'm an optimist and sooner or later the world may yet pull itself back from the abyss and take a long hard look at itself and say "You know what? Life ain't bad if you just live and let live. Sure it's not my way of living but hey if it floats someone's boat and makes them happy, what the hell?"
I may be living in a world of delusion here but I'm hopeful all we need is the political parties to offer up actual candidates next time (in any country).  Also maybe the fear mongers should stop spreading the lies about the world going to hell if you are a non christian etc?  So what if the man down the road is one of those homogaysexualists?  The world will always turn, the sun will always rise, let's just make it worth living here.


1 Jan 2018

"Everybody knows where you go when the sun goes down.
I think you only live to see the lights uptown.
I wasted my time when I would try, try, try.
'Cause when the lights have lost their glow, you'll cry, cry, cry".

I like to think of myself as tolerant or at the very least sympathetic towards the plight of others.  I'm probably not as awesome as I think I am and I know I can improve but still.  A customer who comes into my shop where I work sometimes up to five times a day.  He tells me that his neighbour who is mentally challenged has been put into hospital.  His main concern was that "at least it'll be quiet for him".  This irked me somewhat and I preceded to tell him about compassion and empathy towards others.  His main argument was "well you try getting it the ear everyday for 2 years".  So I proceeded to tell him of the 16 years of knocking on my bedroom door in the middle of the night telling me to turn my music off when there was none. etc. etc.  I then told him that my first thought when she died wasn't "Oh good she's dead at least it'll be peaceful for me now."  It was "such a shame she didn't get a better life towards the end."  I did tell him he should learn to give a fuck about someone else. Still I suppose he didn't get it.

That's the thing though I know that there is no centre of the universe... and if there were it certainly wouldn't revolve around me. This is why I suppose no one else thinks so either?
Yet again I'm rejected by someone I showed affection to.  I wish them a happy new year and her response was to immediately remove me from Facebook.  Wow what a start to the year.
It's hard to remain on the good side in life when people keep pissing on my cornflakes, figuratively speaking.

So I guess that's it? I'm predestined to remain single in life then?  Maybe I should break the habit of a lifetime & stop being nice to people and thinking of others?  After my one present at Christmas from my many friends and family I'm going full on Blackadder's Christmas Carol next year. 

I just doesn't pay to be nice.